this is a really really old post, that has been saved in draft all along, i forgot to post then i guess..now i am in my 7th semester, this post is when i was in my 4th semester..

It's been almost 6 months, since my last post. last one was about my third semester exams, and yesterday my 5th semester started.so, why now? no strong reason actually, just wanted to write tonight so writing. about the last semester. first pf all my 3rd semester results were terrible and don't want to talk about 'em. 4th semester, results are not out yet but pretty sure that they wont be as worse as previous. our college has declared 1 month holidays. by 1st of this month that month is completed, what did i do all these days? half of them i attended a in-plant training program in NFC ( nuclear fuel complex ).before the training started, i expected some work to do actually. but it wasn't an internship, its an in plant training, there is a difference and that is its short term, no work, no stipend, no serious business. but it was good too actually. i got to see some monster machines working, super hot furnaces ..etc.,my friend's uncle who works in NFC told about the job recruitment, salary and stuff like that in NFC. needs a GATE rank less than 300, to get in as a scientific officer, with 60,000 per month and can raise upto 80k to 100k in 3 years. i was like " wtf, are u serious, 60k as starting salary for a mechanical engineer..wow". it still runs in my mind, not looking ahead for M.tech anymore, just any govt. job like this one. fascinated by the salary but what about my education. din't cross my mind then. now thinking little sensibly, and now realized that i'm in a confusion again. again about the same thing as once i was before.best solution i figured for now is to stay calm, relax, do what i'm supposed to do  right now.

                                  i've been thinking lately about making short animated films about the world history, for example the story of KOREAN WAR  is a great one to start with, thinking about many other too like, history of dictators like lenin, hitler, stalin etc., world war 1, 2; vietnam war, indo china, history people, nations etc., its just an idea yet. got to work on that a lot i believe.    

i have taken VOW OF SILENCE today.
 why did i take such vow?
 no strong reason actually, not to test my determination, not for inner peace shit, not to control too much non sense but only because i thought being 'mute' and 'writing down what you want to say' is cool..because as you don't talk, and rarely write down what you want to say, your every note will have better attention than a
word that is spilled out.
...though my day hasn't been a complete success, but i did great i think...
on the other side of the coin, many negatives too..
 1-can't always convey what you want to say
2-even if you can, would be difficult sometimes
3- forget about cracking instantaneous jokes
4- cant call any person who is not looking at you.
5- cant attend or make a phone call ( can, but you have break the vow )
6- your listeners may not always be patient to understand your signs or words..( they'll get used to it )
 etc.,  we can go on like this for both sides of the mutism... but here we are talking about vow of silence, mean we can talk but we choose not to...today, i have taken that vow and broke it at-least a dozen times. most of the times it was necessary, some times words just escaped my mouth and other time not wanting to make people think that i have taken a vow for attention, so, i didn't even let them know about the vow by breaking it.. how stupid that is....
            i talk too much shit. this i realized from today's experience itself...millions of times unnecessary conversation just tried to spill out of my mouth and i was successful in holding almost all of them back.i am not a monk or have no real strong reason to take my vow too seriously and stay super mute. in cases where i feel talking is necessary, i will speak, that too too little. i am a student, so i need to interact with lecturers sometimes, i may came across a stranger somewhere, in such situations i'll not even think about 'thinking about breaking the vow', i'll just break it...
i am going to stay mute tomorrow too, this time i'll not let even one useless word.. at-least i'll try...but tomorrow there is a test, and may face circumstances where i should open my mouth.. lets see..  
     

its exams time now running...seriously, i really messed up this semester..i can clearly see few main reasons, 1st one is my negligence (can call it laziness), my bike, then comes internet.,of course many have the same reasons, this is my 1st real fucked up sem so got to say...

Wanted (5/11) Movie CLIP - Wesley's Breakdown (2008) HD

 one of the most awesome scenes of wanted..

hello, something really shitty happened today. prepared for the lab exam, and fortunately i got an easy experiment. story was really good until i accidentally slipped Dial indicator(which is the only costly equipment of that experiment ) and they have got only 1 piece, one which i spoiled .1 lecturer saw when that happened ,so i had too accept it .now this thing costs around 2500-4000 Rs and repair, it depends of level of damage inside. this evening me and my friend gave that dial indicator to a watch repair shop and he told couldn't repair 'cause of the broken gear inside, and he don't have spare for that tiny gear.i opened and tried to check what the problem is, now i don't think its going to get repaired .still, can't be sure about that .
                              another bad thing happened is my attendance, it was below 75% and i have to pay fine   ( condonation ) of 300/- ,don't know how to manage that in home, dad's going to be real serious this time. even last semester i had low attendance, but this time it went deeper that i have to pay fine now, ain't that bad ( for dad ). its okay ,i'll manage it. 

Here we go..this is my first blog, was thinking, why do people use blogs ,i mean , people write their stuff, do they write all that just for themselves, like some diary or a log book? or they wanted everybody to see what they think? i think there are both kinds of people (here i'm talking about the personal blogs) use blogs, to update their life log, to spread their ideas. ain't that good,?, i mean publicizing our personal news or an idea is such a difficult thing, but maintaining a online diary is good enough for me to maintain a blog.
                                 Actually i have a diary, but i haven't been writing since 3-4 months i think, why ? that's obvious , i was too lazy..every time a cool experience, or an awesome moment ,a joke, a crazy action, a serious talk, a silent thought, bunches of ideas, last night dreams, all these, when they are not noted or recorded feels like i'm going to regret this in far future.Procrastination is a super bitch, and its real hard to get rid of her...may be while checking out some stupid posts in facebook ,this time i'll update anything saving my precious moments. and immediately my mind is thinking of 'what if' situations..."what if this bloggers deleting all the data in their servers some day, all those memories, moments, posts, discussions all gone" ..this may sound like "doomsday preppers'' ,but it could happen like it happened to GOOGLE READER . its ok... there couldn't be any thing in this world which doesn't perish some day, even if i write all that in a diary, i could lose that book ,shit could always happens.

                                 coming to my current status, i'm 18 , under grad student, interested in science, money and fun.Going in detail ,guy who starts reading '5 steps to fight procrastination' and ends up with updating his first blog.